"You're not alone!"
Those are the words I felt being whispered to me this morning as I was having a bit of a pity party. I had just sat down at the desktop computer to send a PM to a friend asking them if they could give me a good solid explanation about something and as soon as I sat down that precious thought entered my mind and held me back from sending the message. Instead, it made me DWELL (my 2018 word) on that sentence for a while.
Several years ago I signed up to attend a Ladies Retreat at a former church and at the last minute had to cancel because a family member had surgery and needed me to help them out. I was able to let a young Mom who probably needed it much more than I did go in my place. I was asked about a year ago to attend a Ladies Retreat this past weekend and was so excited to get to go and turn it into a vacation, too, something that I feel I truly need right about now, but because of another family member's health, I wasn't able to attend and when the other lady I was going with left this past Wednesday and I saw her go down the road heading to the airport as I was fixing to mow my Mom's yard, I couldn't help but tear up and yes, feel sorry for myself. Another Ladies Retreat is coming up and again because of family obligations, I can't attend.
"You're not alone!"
I believe those words were whispered to my heart for two reasons. I know that I'm not the only one with struggles and battles and obligations, but sometimes it does feel that way when we start to feel sorry for ourselves and asking "why me?" (it should be "why not me?") The most important reason is that God sees my hurt feelings and tears and fears and He's ALWAYS there as my "retreat"!
Ain't God good?
Oh, yes He is!
Oh Deb, I have been there and at times I am there. I get it girl! Recently I was just about to have a major pity party and was ready to invite a few to join me. The Lord so sweetly reminded me that He has it all in the palm of His hand and was working things out for my good and His glory and though all I could see was the small picture of things. I couldn't see the big picture! Praying for your sweet spirit. And one thing is for sure....GIRL...can you imagine the RETREAT we will be have together in heaven one day????? Hugs and blessings, Cindy
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to miss out on something you've looked forward too, I think it's just natural to feel sad. Our obligations are not just obligations, they are the work God gave us to do....you are a faithful friend/family member and most of all you are faithful to our Lord. Blessings will come because of your faithfulness and obedience. I love what Cindy said, we're going to have one great RETREAT some day and you're going to be at that one.
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I am so sorry you had to forego your retreats, and I do understand the disappointment, even when you know you are doing what God wants you to do. I pray that God will indeed minister to you and bless you and keep you close to Him each day, and that He will show you over and over again just how precious you are to Him and that He is closer to you than you could ever imagine. Take a few moments each day to find a quiet place and time to just "dwell" in His presence and feel His loving arms around you. It is so true, we are never alone when we live in Christ. Praying for you now...may the peace that passes all understanding by yours at this very moment. Amen.
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