{ I yam what I yam }

I've been told I'm a "deep thinker".

I am a pretty serious old gal.

I find myself trying to see a "reason" or a "why" or a meaning in most every thing that is said and done, movies I watch, books I read.

Many don't like my blog for some of the reasons stated above, and probably a host more, if the truth were known.

"She talks about God too much".

"She thinks she's  better than others because she's a Christian."

Oh, listen, if y'all could get inside my head you'd see that oh, my word that ain't the truth at all.  I have so many insecurities and faults and let my mouth run when there should be a muzzle put on it (that's with my husband). I voice my opinion and tell it like it is and point out when I see injustices done, like speaking out in a Facebook post about a political cartoon that was in such poor taste and I knew it would hurt those of a certain skin color, our grand-daughter included (thank the good Lord she's too young to understand those things right now, but she will soon and it breaks my heart for her).  I get my feelings hurt easily because, like my Daddy used to tell me I carry them around on my shoulder just daring somebody to knock them off.  And, another lady told me I get offended really easily, and that statement offended me.....

but it was the truth and that hurt my feelings because they were barely balancing on the tip of my shoulder.

So, you see, I'll be the first to criticize and make fun of and put down.....

myself.

I get fussed about for that, too.

But, I've come to this conclusion......

God made me and He's not  gonna stop working on me until I take my last breath.  He loves me in spite of my faults because He looks inside of me and sees something that I definitely don't see myself 99% of the time.  Then, he sends somebody right smack dab in the middle of the Wal-Mart to say something that is so kind and knew that I needed to hear because of my current state of feeling unloved and unwanted and insecure. (I know I'm on my pity pot, don't need anybody to point that out....re-read about the teetering feelings above).  This person was somebody I'd been feeling angry at (yes, I know that's a sin) because of something he did that inadvertently affected me and he had no idea that I was feeling that way but he said something that he'd also said to me in the past and I realized that he had taken some advice I'd been giving him for years and years and......

well, I walked away knowing I'd just had an encounter with the good Lord.

(re-read about finding meaning and "why" in EVERYTHING that happens to me).

So, for those of you who know me really well, you had to see this statement coming, right?

Ain't God good?

Oh, yes HE is!!!