Some people write in a journal....I write a blog....and in doing so, feel like I share a huge part of my life, my heart, my insecurities....with each of you out there who stop by from time to time and read what I have to say. I have a link on my blog to Christian Women Online, and thought I would visit that site to see if I could find a few new "decorations" for my blog page. God obviously was leading me there for an entirely different reason.
For quite some time now....I've been struggling, for lack of a better word....and I'm not sure I realized that it was even a "struggle" until I came across something that Sunny Shell had written on the Christian Women Online web-site. She writes an article called Sister to Sister where she interviews other Christian ladies. Here are some of the words she wrote about herself....that touched me deep down inside....because they seemed to explain somewhat of what I've been dealing with myself:
"Dearest sisters in the Lord Jesus Christ, I want to share my heart with you. I’ve been struggling. Struggling with how inept I am at nearly everything. Struggling with this “fog” I’ve been in for several months now. Struggling just to make a complete sentence that would prove that I’m still somewhat coherent. But like someone flailing around in quicksand, all my struggling only caused me to sink even faster and deeper. It’s when I stopped and was still, that I was able to cry out to our compassionate and merciful Father for help.....The Lord showed me that I’d been talking to myself and what I’d been saying wasn’t based on His truth; but on my insecurities and lies I’ve heard all my life." - Sunny Shell
All of us...even those who refuse to admit it...have struggles and make mistakes. Some of us beat ourselves up over what we do wrong....over every little error....others, instead of trying to make us feel better by admitting they're weak in some areas, too....help us beat ourselves up....possibly making themselves feel better because of their own insecurities.
But....in spite of it all....He's still there....
All-knowing....
All-hearing....
All-listening....
....and speaking to me....in His still small voice....and praise His name, I'm still able to hear Him...above all the other "noise"!!!
Psalm 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!
In His Most Blessed Love...and with mine!!!
Oh Deb, this is perfect and thank you for following the direction of the Lord!Not only did you receive truth, but I have tasted the truth by your over flowing cup this morning. Fill my cup Lord I lift it up! This morning when I woke up I had some feelings of "condemnation" for not reaching my "expectations" not being what I would consider "good enough" or "obedient enough" to taste the goodness of the Lord....upon my thoughts the Lord spoke these words to me, " Stop trying to be perfect, stop trying to earn my love - you can never earn that which is given freely". And then I read your blog and again my heart is touched by truth and encouraged by truth and humbled by truth this morning! Oh I serve an awesome God that has filled my way with His Love through many avenues and one of them this morning is YOU, DEB! Thank you so much for your encouraging post this morning, for being the person you are to share "all" of you with us in Blogland! ;0) as you stated in your last email.
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Boy, the if you hear it more than once thing again. I almost did a blog on foggy minds but put it down for the Lord pointed out that it was not ready to blog. He has put a hault to that one for now. But studying it and then now I see the fog moment on your post, a hum moment for me. My days seem to have been in a fog and I've barely been coherent. Thanks for posting this. I need to be still and let God blow this fog off of me or dry it up. My blog today seems like it went every which way. Just between you and me, sometimes I feel I get in over my own head with my blogs but I'm not the one typing or writing those blogs. It amazes me how some of them turn out and I don't realize it until I proof read it. Love ya..... :)
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